+yesterday I woke up early so me and babe could get lunch at turtle tower. he drove us there and I got the veggie one and it was delishhh. i hate grass jelly gross.
+then we went to stones. I got my iPhone completely replace because my lock button was like jammed/unresponsive . happy happy!
+went home, saw his mama for the first time in a really long time. she is so sweet.
+then I went home and got ready for my Nordstrom job interview. I got there and had two separate ones . it was pretty nerve racking. i hope I get a job this summer I need money.
+after, babe took me to skyline for my econ class. the first hour we could sit together so it was pretty chill. but then the professor separated us because there were too many people at a table . so the next 2 hours he was stuck in the front by himself. #sorry
+after, we were super hungerzzz so we decided to go to geary for dessert. then we decided we wanted food instead. we drove allll over back and forth looking for a restaurant that wasn’t too pricey or that was open at all. it ended so fail we drove back to taraval to get japanese. which turned out really yummy but was a huge waste of gas. bb called it an “adventure”.
+babe nap at home. teehee
this is so cute
we used to laugh until we choked into the wasted nights
last night i was wearing my shirt again. you asked me why I always insist on wearing it. i said just because you didn’t want me to.
then you realized. you pulled me very close and hugged me. you told me you loved every part of me, and that I was beautiful. you asked me if I understood, and that how you felt would never change.
i said okay. sometimes, hearing those words just sound too good to be true, and it scares me. It scares me how incredibly happy you make me, and that if this fell apart, I would feel so lost.
I know you are not supposed to depend on anyone but yourself for happiness, but it’s really tough sometimes. It’s fucking tough to just be content with yourself and all your insecurities and thoughts. Sometimes you need someone to tell and reassure you everything is okay and will be okay in the end.
I am trying to become someone who can be happy with herself, or by herself. Slowly, I will get there. It’s just hard.